Thursday, February 04, 2021

Jelly brain

I'm sorry I haven't posted in 6 days, but I've had a head full of jelly. My sinus trouble returned. It makes me sway about when I'm walking because of dizziness, and clogs up my thinking too. It's slightly clearer today, but I'm still not steady enough on my feet to stack the logs that Dave has brought home and cut up, which is a shame because it's a chore I enjoy.

Such news as there is at Hepworth Towers is this:

I'm watching Atypical on Netflix again, and I'm half way through Americanah by Chimanda Ngozi Adichi. I recommend them both. Next I'm going to read The Offing, as recommended by blog reader, Kristine.

I've finished another painting I'm pleased with and have moved on to painting this: the clematis by our front door. I love the stark clarity and smoothness of the stems, their arrangement, and the teardrops of rain.

I'm beginning by painting it realistically (which is hard!) but I had thought that as it was symbolic of lockdown maybe I'd also do an abstract, with all the things I am missing in lockdown written beyond the stems. I started to list them but it made me too miserable so I stopped.

What doesn't make me miserable is looking at all the photographs on my iPad, like this one of the girls and me in Boulder, as i'm setting off on a zipwire:


And these two, taken the last time they visited:

There are so many lovely memories I can scroll through any time I want:

One day it will no longer be the February of the soul. And because of that I am ordering my cosmos and sweet pea seeds today.


One day people will touch and talk perhaps easily,

And loving be natural as breathing and warm as sunlight

And people will untie themselves, as a string is unknotted

Unfold and yawn and stretch and spread their fingers

Unfurl, uncurl like seaweed returned to the sea

And work will be simple and swift as a seagull flying

And play will be casual and quiet as a seagull settling

And the clocks will stop, and no one will wonder

or care or notice,

And people will smile without reason, even in the winter,

even in the rain.



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